Life Level – Rookie

Lately I’ve been feeling like a total rookie in this whole life thing. In my business things have been pretty rock and roll, not because I’ve gone on some kind of ‘throw myself into work’ rampage to avoid dealing with the death of my partner, more that I’ve actually been doing the opposite. When I’ve tried to throw myself into …

The scale of purple monkeys & grief

I’m writing this blog, in part, for my own therapy and personal healing.  I’m also writing this to share because I know what I have to say will help those of you that may be battling in your lives with grief.  It is my hope that these blogs will help you gain some strength from my struggles. —————————– I created this scale to …

How many grief stricken women does it take to change a light bulb?

I’ve had a rough weekend, topped off by an event I didn’t expect.  A simple task, one that should really go relatively smoothly, it doesn’t – and it results in me turning into a screaming, sobbing mess on the back step of our home.  I lie down, the screaming continues, I can’t breathe again. It’s like I’m back to day …

Time travel, Parallel universe, Cloning and Grief

The conversation went something like this between a friend and myself. K: Don’t laugh, this is going to sound nuts but I’ve totally Googled time travel. M: *laughs* That’s totally normal hun, add parallel universes & cloning from my list. K: Obviously we’re not the only ones because there was results. M: I think anyone who hasn’t Googled these options …

Grief and Grenades

For a solid three weeks after I had lost my loved one, all I could feel was despair and a terrible darkness had descended.  A few months later I tried describing the feeling and all I could come up with that came even close to an adequate description was that it felt like my heart had been ripped out and …